Another year:

wow a year has passed,  time got away from me again. Guess I should close this blog.  maybe.
or maybe I should just use it.

Lets see...in the last year, much has happened.
Was in and out of hospital, first because i took a bad fall, emergency guys thought i hurt my neck, but luckily no damage. Leg, knee and neck hurt like the devil for a while.
Then went to ER because my chest hurt so bad, felt like a knife stabbing me. but after many tests, they found nothing wrong. weird.

We put a new deck on the front of the house. it has a handicap ramp, so now I can easily leave without steps. so nice.  My power chair can easily go up and down, right into the house on bad days.

Hubby's father got very ill, and passed away. was very hard on us both. I loved him like my own dad.


On the crafting side, I still crochet. Market bags, dishcloths, potholders, beaded bracelets.
Have also started making jewelry. will post photos of one set i am so happy with.

Hubby bought me a portable scanner. it is a wand like item, can slide it down a page and it keeps the scan as a photo. will be so nice to have when i am out and see a recipe i want, or when at family to get copies of photos, etc.  I am thrilled.

Son and his wife are finally moving out. 6 months turned into over 5 years, but they found a place they are goign to rent to own. I am happy for them, and thrilled that the room they are in hubby has decided to turn into my craft room, with custom storage, desk for sewing machine, tables for crafting on etc!!. am so looking forward to it!! Everything organized, sorted so I know what is where. and can get rid of things like the plastic canvas i probably will never use.

Why is it....

That if someone says "hey I have this idea for something, can you make it?" I can usually make what they want, without a pattern.
When it comes to something I want for me, I cannot do it. no matter how I try. makes no sense to me.
No matter how hard I try, I just can't do it.
Rarely do I keep things just for me. I make tons of market bags, take them to the stores and end up selling or giving them away.

This time I wanted to make me a lightweight sweater. jacket, whatever you want to call it. So I tried. I can see it in my mind. but I cannot make my hands do the same thing. Start, rip out, start again, change hook, change stitches, try again, still not right. Draw it out. sketch over and over. show family, yes it looks great they say. so stitch away, rip it out ..giving up.

Hate crochet block.
anyone need a market bag?

Times fly...

Time flies when you are having fun. that's the old saying.
But time flies faster it seems when things are not so fun. or at least to me they do..
Shall I post what all i have done since my last post? or shall i just say "much has happened, some good, some not so good" and just move on.
I think thats what I shall do. Move on.

I have taken my love of crocheting back.
For christmas money was tight, so i went through the yarn, and my imagination, and came up with an item both the gals here seemed to love.
I made them something to hang on a wall that they could put their hair ties, and clips on. it hangs on the wall using one of the Command type hooks, no nails in the walls. and they both seem to like it and use it.
For my son, i made him an item to hang on the wall, that he could store his game controllers, phone, glasses etc in at night when he heads to bed. it too hangs on the wall with the Command type hooks. looks similar to a remote control holder only more pockets.

Steven and I did not do anything for each other. we have all we need. We decided it was easier of us to just go to the store or wherever if we need it then, instead of buy it for a gift for each other later. Makes sense to me. hard to buy a surprise for each other when we shop together anyway.

My current project is a granny sweater. for once I am making something just for me. when it is done will post a photo. hopefully it will turn out as pretty as the one i am following the pattern for.

well guess thats all for now.
missing the crochet friends i knew. and hope they are all well.

Been forever

Seems like forever ago..

a long time ago..

Seems like?

No it was...that i have logged into my blog.

Much has happened, too much to post about.

my home is full, 2 of my kids live with me, and one is married.

keeps the house busy.

My D.A. had gotten to the point i am using the handicap parking spots when shopping, and the motorized chairs in the stores. We have bought me a walker too, to help me get around.

and a dear friend has given us a Rascal scooter so i can go on "walks" with hubby.

over the last 60 days life took a bad turn. First a good friend passed away. then 24 hours later my Aunt. then not even 2 weeks later my Mother. its been a hard month since then.

Doc put me on antidepressants and sleeping pills. and more pain pills.

We drove to Nebraska for moms Memorial service. so hard. The drive itself was hard on me, sitting for so long. but to see my dad cry was the worst.

Did get to see many of the family i have not seen in 20 plus years, my brother, cousins, aunts and uncles. Wasn't a good time but was good to see them all even if it was just for an evening. 3 day drive out, one week visiting etc, then 2 hard days drive home.

Dad sent all mom's houseplants home with me, no one else wanted them. they have been badly neglected, some barely alive, but I am determined to help them grow and be healthy again. I do not want to fail.

While in Nebraska I got to see my grandkids. they are wonderful. it was the first time seeing my granddaughter. she is beautiful, and her older brother is just fantastic, and fun to play games with.

As for crochet, my heart really isn't into it right now.

I did buy some beads today, i want to learn to make friendship bracelets that are beaded.

Time will tell if I succeed or not. we shall see.

I wish....

I wish....
..that just once those I love could feel the pain I have when I am hurting, so they know what I am going through. That they would have the struggle of getting out of the chair, so they know how hard it is. that they would feel the pain standing at the sink doing dishes or at the stove trying hard to get a meal on the table without crying.

..that my daughter would understand when I just cannot hurry or do something that needs done

..that my son would know just how much it means to me when he offers a hand out of the truck on days I just cannot do it alone. or that arm up the steps, or the "mom let me carry that"

..my husband knew just how much he really means to me. words never seem enough. And just how much he is appreciated, again words never seem enough.

..that i could do more of the things I used to do, like going for that walk with my husband, or the bike ride, or shopping in the mall just for the fun of going.


Honestly, No I do not wish the pain on anyone, not my family, not my friends or anyone else. But I do wish for the understanding that I am going through this, and it will not get better, only worse...that some days I just cannot...cannot shop, cannot walk, cannot get up to go look out the door...cannot.

I am thankful that it is I that am struggling though this now, and not my kids, or my husband, or friends. I am thankful that they can go shopping, bike riding, walking. I am thankful for the day that the pain is not so much, that I can go look at the yard, or go to the store, or just go for a ride in the pickup.

People always take the little things for granted...I know I used to. Remember when shopping for Christmas that there are those that would love to go, and cannot. Be thankful you can.

Because I wish......Everyone could.

Halloween bags

Well time flew once again.
seems i never have enough time anymore.
Facebook......thats what I blame. ...well it is my own fault. I got started on silly games. time consuming...and they ate my time up.
Halloween came, and went. We decorated as usual, and although it was raining the kids showed up, and loved the yard.
I handmade treat bags this year for the kids. lots of work, but I like making things for others.

Each one holds 2 kid sized treats.
and try as i might, no 2 faces turned out the same.


Been asked to crochet dishcloths for a friend to use as christmas gifts. So been working on those now. need them done soon. Mind isnt what it used to be so creating interesting patterns isnt working well. guess I resort to a pattern search.
till next time, happy crocheting!

Findings and such

Hope everyone is having a good Labor Day weekend.
Ours has been busy.
First off we decided to go looking for a Shed.
Mind you, last time we were "Just Looking" was just over a year ago when we wanted to see what prices of vehicles were, and fell in love with this:

Saw it on a Saturday, Went back on a Sunday to see it again, and Monday went in and bought it.

So for us to go "JUST LOOK" at sheds was quite funny.
We found one we really like. It matches our house exactly, color and all. It is big enough to store all Hubbys woodworking tools, the lawn mowers, tillers, other lawncare stuff and still have room left over.
Hubby is going to the bank in the morning to see if we can swing a loan.

We also decided to remove the backyard fence. It was here when we moved in almost 7 years ago. it was quite flimsy then, so decided it needed to go. We are talking about maybe putting in a new fence, in a Almond colored vinyl to match the siding on the shed and house.
We shall see.

Found a couple blogs today that are so full of fun things, patterns, recipes and such I thought I would share them with you.
http://mybestfriendcallsmemartha.blogspot.com/
and
http://foothillsofthegreatsmokymountains.blogspot.com/

Check them out when you have time.