Been forever

Seems like forever ago..

a long time ago..

Seems like?

No it was...that i have logged into my blog.

Much has happened, too much to post about.

my home is full, 2 of my kids live with me, and one is married.

keeps the house busy.

My D.A. had gotten to the point i am using the handicap parking spots when shopping, and the motorized chairs in the stores. We have bought me a walker too, to help me get around.

and a dear friend has given us a Rascal scooter so i can go on "walks" with hubby.

over the last 60 days life took a bad turn. First a good friend passed away. then 24 hours later my Aunt. then not even 2 weeks later my Mother. its been a hard month since then.

Doc put me on antidepressants and sleeping pills. and more pain pills.

We drove to Nebraska for moms Memorial service. so hard. The drive itself was hard on me, sitting for so long. but to see my dad cry was the worst.

Did get to see many of the family i have not seen in 20 plus years, my brother, cousins, aunts and uncles. Wasn't a good time but was good to see them all even if it was just for an evening. 3 day drive out, one week visiting etc, then 2 hard days drive home.

Dad sent all mom's houseplants home with me, no one else wanted them. they have been badly neglected, some barely alive, but I am determined to help them grow and be healthy again. I do not want to fail.

While in Nebraska I got to see my grandkids. they are wonderful. it was the first time seeing my granddaughter. she is beautiful, and her older brother is just fantastic, and fun to play games with.

As for crochet, my heart really isn't into it right now.

I did buy some beads today, i want to learn to make friendship bracelets that are beaded.

Time will tell if I succeed or not. we shall see.

I wish....

I wish....
..that just once those I love could feel the pain I have when I am hurting, so they know what I am going through. That they would have the struggle of getting out of the chair, so they know how hard it is. that they would feel the pain standing at the sink doing dishes or at the stove trying hard to get a meal on the table without crying.

..that my daughter would understand when I just cannot hurry or do something that needs done

..that my son would know just how much it means to me when he offers a hand out of the truck on days I just cannot do it alone. or that arm up the steps, or the "mom let me carry that"

..my husband knew just how much he really means to me. words never seem enough. And just how much he is appreciated, again words never seem enough.

..that i could do more of the things I used to do, like going for that walk with my husband, or the bike ride, or shopping in the mall just for the fun of going.


Honestly, No I do not wish the pain on anyone, not my family, not my friends or anyone else. But I do wish for the understanding that I am going through this, and it will not get better, only worse...that some days I just cannot...cannot shop, cannot walk, cannot get up to go look out the door...cannot.

I am thankful that it is I that am struggling though this now, and not my kids, or my husband, or friends. I am thankful that they can go shopping, bike riding, walking. I am thankful for the day that the pain is not so much, that I can go look at the yard, or go to the store, or just go for a ride in the pickup.

People always take the little things for granted...I know I used to. Remember when shopping for Christmas that there are those that would love to go, and cannot. Be thankful you can.

Because I wish......Everyone could.

Halloween bags

Well time flew once again.
seems i never have enough time anymore.
Facebook......thats what I blame. ...well it is my own fault. I got started on silly games. time consuming...and they ate my time up.
Halloween came, and went. We decorated as usual, and although it was raining the kids showed up, and loved the yard.
I handmade treat bags this year for the kids. lots of work, but I like making things for others.

Each one holds 2 kid sized treats.
and try as i might, no 2 faces turned out the same.


Been asked to crochet dishcloths for a friend to use as christmas gifts. So been working on those now. need them done soon. Mind isnt what it used to be so creating interesting patterns isnt working well. guess I resort to a pattern search.
till next time, happy crocheting!

Findings and such

Hope everyone is having a good Labor Day weekend.
Ours has been busy.
First off we decided to go looking for a Shed.
Mind you, last time we were "Just Looking" was just over a year ago when we wanted to see what prices of vehicles were, and fell in love with this:

Saw it on a Saturday, Went back on a Sunday to see it again, and Monday went in and bought it.

So for us to go "JUST LOOK" at sheds was quite funny.
We found one we really like. It matches our house exactly, color and all. It is big enough to store all Hubbys woodworking tools, the lawn mowers, tillers, other lawncare stuff and still have room left over.
Hubby is going to the bank in the morning to see if we can swing a loan.

We also decided to remove the backyard fence. It was here when we moved in almost 7 years ago. it was quite flimsy then, so decided it needed to go. We are talking about maybe putting in a new fence, in a Almond colored vinyl to match the siding on the shed and house.
We shall see.

Found a couple blogs today that are so full of fun things, patterns, recipes and such I thought I would share them with you.
http://mybestfriendcallsmemartha.blogspot.com/
and
http://foothillsofthegreatsmokymountains.blogspot.com/

Check them out when you have time.

Cutest dog

I am currently involved with a friend in a "Cutest Dog" contest.
this is not my dog, but if you wouldnt mind, please go vote for it!!
http://tinyurl.com/m68yj3

thank you!

Country Peaches

I finished this doll today. I am calling her Country Peaches.

I used the basic instructions for the Dumplin Dolls, and improvised a skirt for her.

Mystery Man Market bag

Here is the story behind this bag:

On Tuesday I took dear daughter to one of the temp agencies so she can continue her job search. I stayed in the truck crocheting while she was inside.

I am in the process of making a very bright bag from orange and a red heart yarn called mexicana. vibrant bright colors.

Anyway sitting there with the windows down, radio on and a man walks toward the truck down the sidewalk. He is scruffy looking. needs a shave, clothing a bit torn. he stops and says he likes my truck, and I tell him we do too thanks.

then he notices what I have in my hands. he asks if he can come closer to look. I had no problem with it. he came over and asked what I was crocheting. So I explained what it was. He said he really liked it. I told him I wished it was done I would have given it to him, and he said no, there is another plan for that bag, you just do not know yet what it is. he then placed his hand on the bag, closed his eyes a moment, then shook my hand, said God bless and walked away.I turned around to say goodbye and he was gone...no where to be seen.

Today I finished the bag.